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Post by Ifrit on Nov 18, 2005 8:23:47 GMT -5
My boyfriend, he always talks to this girl like obsesses over her, and sometimes i wonder, if he is cheating on me, like once in a while i would give my other guy friends a hug when i am upset, then one day my boyfriend came up to me saying i shouldn't be doing that, so of course i don't want to upset him, i stopped. And he's saying i shouldn't or anything and hes getting pissed at me about that and i see him hugging that one girl all the time. ANd his granfather told him this, its ok to cheat, longs if you don't get caught. and when my boyfriend told me that he sounded serious, because he kept bringing up that girls name... Amber or something like that, so he tells me to stopp hugging everyone, so i just tossed aside all my friends because they were ditching me anyways, and i stopped, but when i see him and amber, i feel like somethings wrong, i don't go telling him he can't do something and not hug any other girl and stuff, and i trust him alot. So( heres a pain ful part) i got very upset, my parents hate me and my family does to, i was also mad at him, i decided to try and end my life because i couldn't take it anymore. so i took a pair of scissors and just started off with cutting my ha nd again like i did a while ago and my friends hated it, so i stopped. My bad habbits finally came back and i lost control and couldn't take it anymore. SO i cut my wrist and down my arm and it didn't bleed,( thats why i am still here) and now when i see amber, i can't even look at her, i can't stand judging people because i barley know her but shes always around him, she like gives me weird looks and everything, and walks right by me when i am with him, but when i am not shes all over him basically... sometimes i just run into him with out him knowing and i see them two.... i wanna say something but i don't know what to say and i don't want to feel stupid. I usually go to his locker with him every morning and this morning was weird hes like go to class iwas like no i am goin with you and he seemed edgy.. then amber came by and she looked at me in a weird way.. i dunno what to do....i dont' know what to say.....  |
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Post by (((Thump))) *bounces* on Nov 20, 2005 2:13:13 GMT -5
I couldn't sleep tonight and I came here and read what you said, Ifrit and I'm honestly feeling your pain. It's undenyable that everyone has something bad happen in their life, but there's just so much beauty to life, not to mention that suicide is an unforgivable sin. I've had my own up's and down's, believe me. I'm a divorced mother of a 12 year old. My marriage with my ex didn't work out because we both got married too young and I feel this is just how my life is suppose to be. As the cliché goes, everything happens for a reason. Relationships will come and go, but your life is the most precious 'thing' you will ever own. You are definately in my prayers, Ifrit and I know God will help you find the strength too.  *hugs* |
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Post by Ifrit on Nov 20, 2005 16:47:47 GMT -5
*hugs* i thank you for all your support... just recently, today, me and my sister got in a bad brawl.. over a pair of scissors, because she was cutting and she thought no one cared for her. but i did so i fought her and took em away, i was stabbed 4 times, twice in my shoulder and twice in my side. i have a bruise around my neck a few cracked ribs my shoulder is messed up, i didn't want to hurt her. I am in so much pain, my parents don't know and i dont' want them to so i have to hide it as best as i can.... and its hard... somewhere along the line i am gonna snap i know it, but i am trying to fight it.....and people like you are kind and willing to help...... Once again i thank you!
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Post by (((Thump))) *bounces* on Nov 20, 2005 22:46:55 GMT -5
You're very welcome, even though thank you's weren't in order. But I have to say, as a parent, I wouldn't want my daughter hiding anything from me, no matter how upset it could make me. My life and my daughter's life are my most valued possessions. And to be honest, you shouldn't hide anything from yours. You need sit down and talk with your parents about what's going on.
This is one of my favorite songs and it's very appropriate for this:
You and your sister have so much to live for, to look forward to in life. And hurting yourselves is only shortening your time more in this world. And God certainly doesn't want to see you or your sister hurting yourselves like this either. So please reconsidering what you said about not telling your parents. They need to know. And there's so many other places to go for help and guidance that you both desperately need. You're still very much in my prayers.
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