Hi, everyone :)

[mahud]

Hi, everyone.

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement, and your patience during the period that the forum has been closed.

The reason the forum closed was mainly my fault. I have many personal problems, including an anxiety disorder that makes socializing of any kind almost impossible for me.

Really, I'm the last person who should be the Admin of a forum, because I don't know how to deal with all the responsibilities and decisions that the job entails. All the pressure gets on top of me and i end up making bad decisions and become the very person i hate to be.

All i really want is to be good, and to have a relationship with God, and to treat people right, and try to understand where they are coming from, and to not judge them, just because they might have a different view of things. I guess I'll never live up to everyone's expectations of how a person should be, but I can't just give up, because the only alternative would be to totally isolate myself from others, and that is not a solution.

And so, despite the fact that things get messy and are loaded with problems, i am going to try anyway. Sure bad things happen, but also allot of good has also come out of this forum, and really that's what i should be concentrating on. And since I first got an Internet connection two years ago, my life has improved in many ways. I have learnt how to create graphics. learnt how to code stuff, and have made friends, and my life will never be the same again. Despite all the bad stuff, God has really amazingly blessed me, and through all this I know that there are important life-lessons that i need to learn.

I'm sorry if I've hurt you or been mean to you, or in any way acted inappropriately. I can't make everything work right, and things will continue to be a problem for me. and i will keep making the same dumb mistakes too, but I truly just want to be the person God created me to be, and i want to do the right thing.

Thanks for reading

Matthew

[Aled]

Wooo go Matt im so glad youve brought the forum back alive lol, and i think it will help us all

[Nya]

Welcome Back Mahud I am glad to see the place opened back up again I missed it terribly but this is not about me.. You and Shanny have done a great job here and it is not easy to make a site such as this more so without the help from others.

I dont claim to know all about everything only God knows everything so we can only do with what he has given us. And you all have done so much good with what you all know. And yes you will be used and abused by people you take the time to help I myself had to ban and block off messanger a guy which now makes the second time for he did not truely appreiciate what I had done for him.. but im ranting again lol...

No one blames you or Shanny for what happened here for that matter No one is to blame for what happened. Just look at this as a test we as a family and as a forum were tested to see what we would do. And wither we passed or not I dont know but I would hope that the fact that you and Shanny are strong enough to give us all another shot at being all we can has to mean that we have at least past a part of the test. We havent given up we are continuing and I can only hope and Pray that we all can do what god wishes us to do.


Eh ok that looks like I was ranting sorry about that.. not sure how much even made sense.......

[Ellie]

Matt, you are much too hard on yourself. None of us make all the right choices 100% of the time. With or without your anxiety issues I have always thought that you were an awesome admin. You and Shanny have made Ocgfx such a wonderful place and I'm so glad to see it (and the members) back.

[yugiohwiz]

If there is anything I can do to help ocgfx let me know. I do have some suggestions for ocgfx too.

[Aaron]

M@hu your the best admin I know! Don't second yourself on that. You've made so many friends here M@hu, and we're so supportive of your desicions.

I'm glad you opened the forum back up, it has made alot of people happy! If your having personal problems don't think closing the forum would be a bad thing. The internet is extremely addictive and can run into your personal time. I hope all goes well M@hu

God Bless you

[gipsy]

Hi M@,

Hey, there's no way I could tell you have social anxiety. You communicate very well with people on the forum, as far as I can see.
I also have social anxiety (moderate) and even panic attacks (to the point where I need medication... ). I will pray for you.

Hugs,

Gipsy

[xbeatxofxmyxheartx]

I am glad you have opened back up the forum! For the few months I have been registered here, I have really come to love this forum. It is not like a lot of other boards where sometimes you feel uncomfortable posting when they already have their little group of freguent posters. At ocgfx, it is like everyone is just one big family.

[silverspec5]

I too have to say I am so glad you opened the forum again! I know I might not come on and post much, but I do send alot of people here and I like to visit frequently to check things out.

And Mahd...noone is perfect...but I think you have a good thing going here!

[Gwen]

M@ *hugs alot*

I'm really glad you & Shanny have decided to re-open OGFX don't worry about it all too much, don't let it get to you

[Michael]

*yay* I'm really happy OCgfx is open again but like the others said, you do very well in adminning. *nods*

[mahud]

Thank you everyone i really am blessed to be amongst such a wonderful bunch of people And thank you for coming back, after everything closed so suddenly. i don't want to close the board like that again, and every day it was shut i just wanted it to be re-opened again. i think that re-opening was the right thing to do.

Thanks again everyone ;D

[Nya]

Your welcome Mahud.

Although in all my post that made no sense to me after I finished.... I have no idea what I would do without this place. I have yet to find another site as nice and friendly as this place is. (Graphics relaited that it)..


I should stop babbling lol

[Ifrit]

lol *~Nya~* it's ok.. but your right, I bet we couldn't be able to find a place to ever replace ocgfx~

[Nya]

Well least that is good to know im not alone in that. Now lets all try and get back to having fun shall we?